Sometimes, the urge to eat an entire box of double stuffed oreos overwhelms me. Followed by the urge to eat an entire box of golden oreos.
For the past week I've been listening to the Snow Patrol CD that Andy bought while here. I've recently purchased the CD myself because I like to show my support for that which I really like.
As of late, the lyrics on repeat in my mental CD player are
As of late, the lyrics on repeat in my mental CD player are
"Cause it could take my whole damn life to make this right."
I'm not returning to school in September. My lack of registration left me with no student loans, and my lack of any inspiration towards anything career related is more than just a bump in the road. I feel like I'm being heckled into a career, that whatever I settle on I'm picking just to pick something. And that scares me half to death. Which in the end leaves me bitterly frustrated. I'm thinking it WILL take my whole damn life to figure this mess out, and then what? It's all over.
On top of THAT, it seems like I can't catch a break. I really want to buy out the sunfire when the lease is up, but the chances of that happening are null. I think the most I could have is $2-3000, and the car will be between $6-7000. Throw on top of that new tires, new registration, new shocks, and now possibly a new muffler. So basically I could save, then get a line of credit, but get slammed with loan payments, insurance, and gas.
Also, Derek asked me tonight if I'd be interested in going to Park Lane a couple days a week, for some extra shifts. My immediate response was "Yes! Yes! Yes!!" Because I'd love the new atmosphere and being able to boss around people who'd really respect me. However, after much deliberation I deduced that with the gas money and the parking (either street or parkade) it wouldn't be worth it. I couldn't even take the bus because they wanted me for the film festival and where some movies don't start until 12, I'd have no bus running to take me home. Now I'm regretting my decision. I really wanted it. But it just wasn't practical.
Maybe you guys can let me know what you think? Thanks!
On top of THAT, it seems like I can't catch a break. I really want to buy out the sunfire when the lease is up, but the chances of that happening are null. I think the most I could have is $2-3000, and the car will be between $6-7000. Throw on top of that new tires, new registration, new shocks, and now possibly a new muffler. So basically I could save, then get a line of credit, but get slammed with loan payments, insurance, and gas.
Also, Derek asked me tonight if I'd be interested in going to Park Lane a couple days a week, for some extra shifts. My immediate response was "Yes! Yes! Yes!!" Because I'd love the new atmosphere and being able to boss around people who'd really respect me. However, after much deliberation I deduced that with the gas money and the parking (either street or parkade) it wouldn't be worth it. I couldn't even take the bus because they wanted me for the film festival and where some movies don't start until 12, I'd have no bus running to take me home. Now I'm regretting my decision. I really wanted it. But it just wasn't practical.
Maybe you guys can let me know what you think? Thanks!
posted by Fern Wimpley @ 10:44 PM
7 Comments:
At 1:23 PM,
Unknown said…
was there nobody else going to parklane to pick up extra shifts that you could have carpooled with and shared the price of gas and parking?
At 1:25 PM,
Fern Wimpley said…
as far as I know, it was just me.
At 5:41 PM,
Rob, Tina and the boys said…
Depending on how many shifts you could pick up it may be worth it. And, since all the films won't start so late you could park and ride some of them. Do you have any friends in the city you could crash at for a night or two to save on driving home?? BTW, I think you're smart to not go back to school until you know what you want to do.
At 7:20 PM,
Thegirl said…
THat sucks about parklane...you're mom's is a no go, eh? Hugs from here!
At 2:01 PM,
Anonymous said…
Stace... forget the car. I know it's hard to living and home and all that but trust me.. forget it.
Also you really don't want to accumulate more credit right now.
Hope you get the school thing sorted out sooner than later. The risk of not going back is really big with people who don't keep up with it.
I'd say that's probably true of most things actually.
As for a career.. I never intended to do what I do... but I think a lot about success in your career is linked to whether you can find challenges and fun in what you do. Fortunately I've had a positive attitude regarding work the majority of the time, therefore the majority of the time, I like what I do.
At 2:11 PM,
Tawny said…
Please, please, please just let this be a break from school and that you're going to return in January. You've accumulated way to much in student loans to throw it all away because you're confused about your career direction(welcome to University - I'd say a good chunk of students don't figure out what they want to do until AFTER their first degree).
When I did my BA, I THOUGHT I wanted to be a teacher or an architect so I found out what courses I would need to leave my options open and I took those courses (English major for the teaching, Math minor (calculus) for the architecture (and physics too, UGH). You said in a previous post that you're hesitant to drop down to just a BSc because then it's just a degree but I think you're looking at it wrong - it's STILL a degree and it will open doors for you in the future that you might not think of. I've gotten job interviews only because I've had my BA, so I wouldn't be so critical about just getting a degree. It DOES count for something.
Anyhow. Only you can decide what you're going to do for the rest of you life, and I hope you choose to do what makes you the happiest. You're the one that has to get up each morning and go to your job, nobody else should be making that decision for you. Ask yourself what you want to do, what will make you happy and go with your instincts. Chances are it'll be the right decision. I took a very long road to get to where I am (working in communications) and I never saw that as an option for me, but I'm loving it.
So take a few months and do some thinking and figure out what you want to do. But in the meantime, I don't think you should worry about being able to afford Jody's car - saving for your tuition should take precedence (getting buried in student loans is going to come back and bite you in the ass big time, it took me a long time to pay off mine). You're a university student - students either drive piece of crap cars, or take the bus or live in dorms. It's not unrealistic for you to not be able to have a nice car until you finish school and are beginning your career.
As for Parklane - you'll need to let your boss know that you can't swing the cost of gas and parking - you never know, maybe they have a couple of spots that managers get to use during the day that you can use during those late nights. In fact, and on another note (safety related) did you know that if you're working until 1 or 2 am, they SHOULD be taking the responsibility of providing you with an escort to your parking spot?
At 2:34 PM,
Jody said…
I've thought about this a lot (as we discussed) All the advice you have been given is good advice. I'm not thinking for a moment that you are going to 'give up' school altogether, you've come to far for that. A gap year (or term) might be just what is needed to get your head around things. As for the car, what Tawny said is true - and this could mean the same for trips to Toronto and England. Paying off some of your loan would be a good idea, as well as settling any small debt you have. If you do decide to go further than your BSc then your worries won't be as plentiful in regard to paying it back. The further you go in school, the better your career, hence more money to assist you in paying off the ridiculously high cost of student loans (which do go higher the further you go unfortunately) but I think you get what I mean - $20-$30 (or more) an hour takes you a lot further than $10-$15.
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